And I will embrace My insatiable greed & take pleasure in My sadistic desires of draining you for all the cash you work so hard for, owning your dignity and deflating that overstuffed ego, keeping them in My pretty purse to use at will. It's very hard to keep your need locked inside, hidden away from your "normal" life, safe as can be. It's a shame to see such intense feelings buried and wasted. Wasted on the hopes of maintaining your ever -so cherished illusion of the "n ormal" life you have created for yourself, but that need just won't go away, will it? It steals every vacant second of your ordinary life, leaving you yearning to indulge your need and desire to submit to Me. Denial seems to increase your undying infatuation with Me and makes you ache for My luminous attention. Giving in now would stop all that wasted suffering. It's time to start suffering for a grande purpose... Moi.